It has been another interesting season for me. One where the Lord has been showing me how little faith I have had in Him and how faithful He has always been to me. This season has brought and is bringing many obstacles and I’m sure many of those obstacles are of my own making. It has been a season of re-building faith for me and the Lord has been surprising me at every turn and this weekend was no exception.
I have been slowly reading through the Old Testament and this last Saturday I was reading through 1Samuel (one of my favorite books) and stumbled into the story of David being anointed, even though he was the youngest and thought to be the least qualified, and then of course David volunteering to go up against Goliath and subsequently beating and killing Goliath with one stone and a sling.
I read the story and then was off to go about my day. I was talking to the Lord in the car, as you do, and had the revelation that I was David. So much so that I actually yelled it in my car, like a lightbulb went off in my head. I felt so proud of myself and my self realization that I was the little girl with three stones and a sling and the big giant of life was against me. Poor defenseless little ol’ me and I was just going to have to stand up against the giant that is life, with the Lord by my side and hope that He helps me defeat said giant.
So, once I got home I was excited to go back and read about David whom I now identified with and couldn’t wait to see how cool the both of us were. As I cracked open the word the Lord knew exactly what He was doing. He brought me back to truth, to the reality of His word and to show me what David and Goliath was really about.
Boy was I wrong. David and Goliath was not just a story about a giant and a little unprepared man/boy who didn’t know how to fight or fend for himself. It wasn’t about big bad life coming to attack the poor defenseless commoner to build up their faith and grant them some confidence. This wasn’t a “David and Goliath story” as the world so affectionately references it. Nope this was much deeper.
It hit me right where I needed it. Right where my faith should be but really where my faith has not been.
This is a story about a shepherd boy who had, So. Much. Faith.
This was about a shepherd boy whom everybody overlooked but who was totally qualified in the way that he had spent time with the Lord, he believed in the Lord, he had faith, he had come up against opposition before, alone with his sheep in the fields and had fought against wild animals and had won. This is a story about a man/boy whom nobody believed in. Not even his father and brothers. But David didn’t even think twice. The opinions of others didn’t matter to him. He knew who he was and better yet who’s he was.
He came in from the fields with the sheep to be anointed by the kings son and didn’t ask why. He overheard talk of Goliath and was so angered that he volunteered to go up against Goliath saying:
“Your servant used to keep sheep for his father. And when there came a lion, or a bear, and took a lamb from the flock, I went after him and struck him and delivered it out of his mouth. And if he arose against me, I caught him by his beard and struck him and killed him. Your servant has struck down both lions and bears, and this uncircumcised Philistine shall be like one of them, for he has defied the armies of the living God. And David said, the Lord who delivered me from the paw of the lion and from the paw of the bear will deliver me from the hand of this Philistine.” 1 Samuel 17:34-37
David didn’t flinch. He was shocked and angered by Goliath and his threats. That such a man should threaten the children of God. David may not have been classically ready for this fight. I mean he didn’t even know how to wear or really move in chain mail to the extent that he decided to forgo the protection because he literally couldn’t move in it. Some might say that was foolishness or naivety but I think he was a fool for the Lord. He had faith enough to know he wasn’t going to need the external, tangible protection.
So David takes his three stones and his sling and goes to battle. Goliath mocks David, obviously, and as Goliath steps to the battle line David has to, I’m assuming, run to the battle line and takes out a stone and his trusty sling and with all the foolishness and faith and gusto of a young man he flings a single stone at Goliath and kills him! But not before he tells him “The battle is the Lord’s, and he will give you into our hand.”
I mean… Dude had some great faith!
I read this story for the second time that day and sat back and realized that I wasn’t David but I needed to become like David. I needed to go back and really see what God was trying to tell me, which was to just have faith. Have faith that If He tells me to go up against the giant that is life with nothing more than three stones and a sling, with no outward protection, that I need to run to the battle line with foolish faith and know that my God is faithful and His will will be done no matter what state I am in.
Because this isn’t a story about me. This is a story, this life of mine, is a story about God. My life, should be, much like the Bible is, a story that at every turn points to God and who He is. Not who Jenn is, not who David is or even who Goliath is. But my story should always point to who God is. When up against an obstacle or in the middle of a storm my story should always point to God “For the battle is the Lord’s”. This is not my battle, this is what I need to be reminded of on a minute by minute basis.
It’s been so neat to go back and be reminded of God’s faithfulness to me in so many different ways and in so many different seasons. Even in this season of faith building, which is uncomfortable and inconvenient I have been so amazed at who God is in my life and who He has always been. I have been strengthened by the truth of His word and the stabilizing force that it is in my life. Now I need to take the next step and run up to the battle line knowing, not hoping, but knowing my God is faithful and all I need to do is to place my faith in Him. Like David, I need to have foolish faith.